Ding ding

Dear nothing:

I don’t even know how I can start this letter. I think the best way is telling you why I have my heart broken now. And I hope you enjoy this more than me.

All this started on June 19th when I ask to him if he wants to be my boyfriend and unfortunally he said yes…I use that Word because all this shit hurts me in an incredible painfull way and that is everything in my mind and my heart right now a deeply pain eating me. I know he wants to tell me a lot of things, but how is usual he never going to tell me nothing, he prefers trust in other people, I don’t know why, I always told him how my feelings were killing me when we had a problem. But now nothing about that matters. If you ask me what are he doing, he is Reading things on his Facebook, I can see what he is doing on his computer. Is such an asshole. He looks so handsome, so perfect, so far away from me, but he is just a meters from me, but that doens’t care. He is away and I stay where he left me with my stupid broken heart. He was my friend, he was my first boyfriend, he was the most important person for me during five years. Yes… five years dearest anyone. But what about me? I care to him in a moment?... I’m sure yes. He cried for me, he spend a time of his life loving me. But that is shit now… because I think he doesn’t love me know, I don’t know the exactly moment when he leave his feelings apart. I’m so jealous, because I loose my change with him, now probably another girl going to love him and he obviously going to love her. I don’t know what’s going on with my life now. How I said in a thousands ways… I’m totally broken. Before to write I was in the Street and I talk to you, I don’t know if you hear me, probably you do because you are on my mind, and you are always there. I miss him, I miss to spend time on his arms and still there as much as I can, today was our last kiss, our last I love you, our last I’ve miss you… I going to miss him my entire life since now. We broke again, well the Word BROKE is just for me, he looks so quiet, so so so fucking perfect. Why I’m not? Why I have to feel this pain on me? When started our final?... I promisse you dear anyone, I want to be by his side forever… but if you borrow three letters about the Word “forever” you cand find the Word “over”… why my forever gonna still all my life and his forever was so fucking short? I’m not the devil, I’m a falling angel looking for a change to love he took away that change. You know how much I hate the Word couple!!! That’s not for me!!! I said a lot of time. But now… that Word eat me… and now when I’m totally alone I don’t know what can I do by my own. I miss him, and I saw his bestfriend (so fat) being an asshole, he looks so quiet and how if the life give to him a change with my…ex boyfriend. DUDE HE IS NOT GAY AS YOU PUT THAT SHIT ON YOUR STOMACH OR ON YOUR MOUTH AND EAT IT, BECAUSE IS THE ONLY WAY THAT YOU COULD UNDERSTAND THIS. FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOU ENTIRE STUPID LIFE, YOU MAYBE SHOULD DIED THE EXACTLY MOMENT WHEN YOU BORN, YOU DAD LEAVE YOUR MOM BECAUSE HE DON’T WANT TO HAVE A STUPID BOY LIKE YOU, SO SELFISH AND FAT… AND UGLY BADAWAYS.

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